So I got in relationships not more than a month, which seriously, I don't really consider them or treat them for real. And seriously what do I gain out of them? Nothing much except losing it with the 3rd.

Till I met her, enduring a 3 and half years relationship and some dilly-dally months, I realised I'm not craft out to play. No talents for it in fact.

In army, I had visited Thai Disco and I never like it. Cos I don't like the idea that I seems to be cheating on my girl. That, too, is the reason why I didn't like clubbing. However, not having seen this in the same view, the relationship ends bitter with it as the reason.

Now, I'm visiting Thai Discos and stopped lately, for a Thai girl. Contradicting?

Almost falling into a depression over that? Started smoking and smoke a pack a day as a beginner?

Just fuck it dude, it's not the way it works. Get over.