Sunday, November 15, 2009
《被遗忘的华语》
最近，因为懒惰一直以英语来把我人生的点点滴滴添在这里，是时候又让我用华语来表达心中的心情。
已经是一段日子没女朋友了，但是现在心里是怎样还是捉摸不了。
是寂寞?
是空虚? 还是什么？
我很想每天把自己忙得晕头转向，忙得一回家就倒在床上，不省人事。
真的是因为没有女朋友才导致自己开始有一点自暴自弃？还是我从头到尾对人生都没有什么目的？
将来的路途会前往什么方向？
最近有些讨厌自己。就觉得，凡事都似乎对我作对，所以自己翻覆缩成像刺猬，浑身是刺。当别人生气后我才发现到自己有多令人讨厌。
很想又回到 chevrons 去唱歌。我也不知道为什么，但是就觉得去那里唱歌，很轻松，跟一班朋友就坐在那里，聊一些怪怪的东西，挺不错的。
太棒了！明天又要打球。太闷了！多两天又要开工了。
I wonder if the story book I'm reading have an effect on me. But i have became pessimistic. Doesn't quite seems like me, but it's ok. I'm quite glad today we went out again. I love one whole jing gang going out, it's always fun. Army rocks. I always miss army.
And, I hate school still. With almost no friends, all we do is talk about others, giving ourselves some kinda comfort by critisizing everything in school - from girls, to lecturer, to every single things. I don't think it's that we are like this. I feel that it's a form a covering up our fear - being friendless. Well, let's get it over and done with. I can't wait to go into "adulthood". 'Cos soon after that, coming up will be work, marriage, and GG, end of the game "Life".
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